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Apr. 27th, 2004 11:30 pmI know that this is supposed to be a rebuilding time, but I must be honest...I feel terribly decronstructed right now. I want to get stronger as a person, but in some ways, I feel so much weaker and insecure.
A lot of its in my head, I can tell. Today I just knew I was feeling really insecure, but there was nothing I could do to snap out of it. And I'm not getting enough sleep at night at all.
I think all the stresses are starting to really burn me out. And honestly, I'm feeling a bit lonely. I'm throwing myself into work and play, partly by necessity, partly as a means of escape, but the truth of the matter is, at three in the morning, I really miss knowing someone I love and trust is sleeping by my side.
A lot of its in my head, I can tell. Today I just knew I was feeling really insecure, but there was nothing I could do to snap out of it. And I'm not getting enough sleep at night at all.
I think all the stresses are starting to really burn me out. And honestly, I'm feeling a bit lonely. I'm throwing myself into work and play, partly by necessity, partly as a means of escape, but the truth of the matter is, at three in the morning, I really miss knowing someone I love and trust is sleeping by my side.